_grau is a personal reflection on memories coming up during a car accident, where past events emerge, fuse, erode and finally vanish ethereally. Various real sources were distorted, filtered and fitted into a sculptural structure to create not a plain abstraction, but a very private snapshot of a whole life within its last second. In the film, the living paintings (Tableaux Vivants) of growing structures branch out over 10:01 minutes (a reference to the binary system by Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz, where he ascribes 1 to god and 0 to the devil) without ever reaching pure black or white respectively. Every element originates from real experiences and is adapted from my sketches, my own body fragments or scientific visualization methods. For example the first, still seconds of color are the prismatic halos of the collision fading into gray (“grau” in German). The musical framework connects the memories born out of the dramatic moment to clusters. These are partially unleashed from the image flux to ease the desired, free associations of the beholder.